Reverence

27 May

“I am oppressed with a sense of the impropriety of uttering words on this occasion. If silence is ever golden, it must be here, beside the graves of fifteen thousand men, whose lives were more significant than speech, and whose death was a poem, the music of which can never be sung. With words we make promises, plight faith, praise virtue. Promises may not be kept, plighted faith may be broken, and vaunted virtue be only the cunning mask of vice. We do not know one promise these men made, one pledge they gave, one word they spoke: but we do know they summed up and perfected, by one supreme act, the highest virtues of men and citizens. For love of country they accepted death, and thus resolved all doubts, and made immortal their patriotism and their virtue.”

Gen. James A. Garfield

Nurse.  This stone really got me. Thank you Jessie Outerbridge.

These kids are our future.  Someday they will be our voters, our leaders, our heroes.  Let’s teach them now about sacrifice and gratitude.  We can make a better future by showing them today.

Tomorrow, amidst your fun Memorial Day shenanigans, take a minute and just be quiet and think about these stones and what they mean.  And maybe talk to your kids about it too.

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I Like Liam

24 May

I love Liam at 4.  It has been my favorite age for him so far.  I loved Mad at 2, but there’s just something about 4 year old boys that has made that age a favorite for me with both of my boys.  They’ll just stay 4 in my mind forever thankyouverymuch. It’s bitter sweet because every day that passes, I won’t get back since he is my last baby and every day is so so sweet.  Child rearing up until this point has been a lot about survival since my kids are just under 2 years apart.  Now I have 2 in school and I am really enjoying the one on one time with my little guy. He spent a lot of time just keeping up and maintaining a low profile so I feel like now is his time to become Liam in all his freckled green eyed glory.  My husband and I are both having so much fun with him and this year he has learned to write letters, ride a bike, maintain a garden, catch rolly pollys, kick a soccer ball with insane precision, hunt at thrift stores, go ALL THE WAY across the monkey bars, make popsicles, and knead pizza dough.  He loves being wherever we are and whenever I’m digging in the garden, he’s got his hands in the dirt.  Whenever I’m in the kitchen, there’s the tell tale sound of him pushing a chair across the floor so he can be at counter height.  He asks a million crazy questions and gives the best kisses. He draws the world’s most adorable guinea pigs riding skateboards and running in their wheels.  He dreams of the day he can have as many Legos as James and asks me every day when he’s going to be big. I tell him never.  He’s not allowed.

“Hey mom! Do I look like a guinea pig?”

 

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Unbreakable: My love letter to nurses…

10 May

To all the nurses who kissed babies goodbye for now this morning and went to help a community who needs them…

who held hands with someone who took their last breath today…

who resisted screaming at someone whose dumb decisions led them to the hospital bed…

who did the right thing for the patient and pissed off everyone in the process…

who had to choose whether to pee or eat…

who stimulated a dead heart to start beating again…

who watched a young person pass away and then went home and had to act “normal”…

who administered chemo and then patiently held the pink basin and offered a wet washcloth…

who intubated our world’s tiniest patients that aren’t supposed to be here yet…

who were called bitches for saying “no more dilaudid”…

who had to notify next of kin…

who said something hilarious that made a patient laugh…

who put a bandaid on a scraped knee at an elementary school …

who brought donuts to work because they thought their coworkers needed a pick me up…

who gave their sweatshirt to a patient with no home to be discharged to…

who took their naprosyn, iced their knees, and went in for a 12 hour shift without a single complaint…

who kept someone from falling…

who counseled…

who hugged…

who helped a new mom with her first successful latch on…

who had to take care of the biggest meanest patient all week just because they’re a “murse”…

who cared for someone famous and couldn’t. tell. a. soul…

who got poop on their new clogs…

who made my job easier and way more fun just by being awesome…

Happy nurses’ week to my crazy family!

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I went on a date with a boy over the age of 8…

8 May

Friday was awesome.  I got to go on a date with my husband to a grown up restaurant with linen napkins and a weird guy wearing and ear piece and pan seared ahi.  It was amazingly…quiet.  Don’t get me wrong, I LOVE my dates with my kids.  They’re always fun and exciting, but to get to eat my dinner without picking up a single crayon from the floor was dreamy.  I got to give my husband my full attention and I heard every. word. he. said.  We don’t get to do this much so we really treasure these times together.

We ate at a seafood restaurant downtown (thank you, Groupon) and then went to Extraordinary Desserts to have what I consider to be the best cup of coffee ever and crack cake. We drove with the top down on our car and some lovely gentleman at the bus stop threw a chewed up piece of his cheese burger into our car.  He must not have known that both of us spend all week rehydrating, medicating, and listening to the expletives of men just like him at our jobs.  Oh well.  Moving on…

I drank a vodka martini.  Felt very grown up.

I came across this in our wanderings.  Wish I had thought of it!

We like boots.

This car has no roof!

Oh San Diego…you pretty li’l thing.

This coffee, guys.  Seriously.

Layers of creme brulee between layers of chocolate cake and ganache.  Shut. Up.

Legit.

This picture is me as a mega dork. Why am I standing like that?? Awkward. Photo by James, age 8.

Shirt: Jason Wu for Target// jeans: h&m //ring: f21 //boots: Target

And James’ snap shot of his favorite babysitter.

Sand, Surf, and Burritos

5 May

Mike and I both work.  It’s so great that I can contribute financially to our family so he can be home more and I love that my kids get 24 unadulterated hours a week with just him but it doesn’t always leave us with a lot of days home together when none of us have any obligations.  We found ourselves in just this situation 2 Saturdays when our cousins were in town from the LA area camping at one of our local beaches.  We loaded up the kids and headed up.

It ended up being an awesome day.  Did you know San Elijo has a taco stand with AMAZING burritos?  Bull Taco.  Yup.  I fed my face the most awesome shrimp burrito I’ve ever had.  So good and while you’re waiting, you can just look over the cliff at the surfers doing stuff in the waves.  It was one of those moments I have when I think,”I can’t believe I LIVE here.”  I don’t always think this way in my humble suburban day to day which is why it’s great for me to get out and absorb where I live to refresh my sense of gratitude.  San Diego is super expensive and it can be frustrating to be a tax paying citizen here but when I stand and look at the Pacific Ocean with a burrito in my hand, I am so happy I’m here and proud of my city.  It’s a good place.  You should come see it.

So, in addition to burrito gnoshing, there was knitting on the beach, visiting with some of the most fun people I have ever known, watching our kids bond with their cousins, drinking cold beers, skateboarding, and walks to the camp store. It was pretty cold, I’m not gonna lie, but when you live in a beach area, you know that it’s not always sunny and warm so you just take what you get and wear a hoodie. Plus, kids have no nerve endings so they went in the water anyway.  

Great Day with family.  I couldn’t ask for more.

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facelift

2 May

Well, I have had design mood swings on this blog over the last few months. I have been going back and forth over what I want to do here and how I want it to look. I have to keep reminding myself of why I’m doing this and not let my desire for popularity or affirmation drive me. I really like doing this but I don’t want to get caught in the trap of seeking out opportunities just because I will be able to blog about them. I don’t want to miss moments with my family because I am trying to capture the perfect photo of said family for the blog. I have to remember that I am a wife and mother first, a nurse and a bunch of other stuff, and a blogger 645th or something. This is to help me record things in our lives, maybe to vent here and there, share some recipes and projects, and to help keep our distant family in touch with what we’re up to. I’m not an expert in anything, except maybe nursing, I’m pretty good at that.

Anyway, I finally decided to just simplify the look of this thing, add a couple features, and try to make it easier for us to connect. I like the pastels here for a fresh Spring/Summer feel. I also added some of my own embroidered social network buttons (2 more are on the way but I haven’t quite finished them). I have a Facebook page now for this blog and have 2 whole likes. I am on Pinterest here and there and as more friends join, I have loved seeing what’s inspiring everyone these days. I am on Bloglovin’ too which, if you’re a blog reader, is a great way to get updates and there’s an app for that which is pretty awesome. Finally, I have a link to Instagram. I opened my account when my sister in law showed it to me a long time ago and only got to using it recently. I LOVE it. It’s all the things I liked about Facebook without all the things I didn’t like. I have met a lot of really great people and have made some real friendships. I treasure my instabuddies like I would an awesome penpal. They’re all really great! If you want to connect in any of these places, you can link up in the sidebar over there…

See my stitches? Cute, right? I don’t tweet, by the way. I have an account but don’t use it. My little snippet thoughts would probably scare people. I look forward to this next year of writing and general shenanigans. Thanks to all of you that have hung in there with me. Hopefully you won’t get too sick of me anytime soon.

Oh, and if you’re reading this on your phone, my li’l stitches will be at the bottom so scroooollllll down. Ok?

This and That

26 Apr

With a mom who is having a hard time kicking a nasty cough, things have been a bit low key around here. The sights and sounds of mother are not so cute these days.  Picture hacking cough, puffing inhaler, watery eyes (Liam says, “why are your eyes sweating, Mom?”). Nice. We’ve been staying close to home but having our little moments nonetheless.  There are things all around that have been distracting in a positive way since a major part of me wants to wallow in my crappy physical state.  Can’t imagine what would happen if I had pneumonia or something serious.  What a big baby!

Anyway, here are some of the little bits of happiness happening around here:

Things are blooming in the garden all over the place.  It is so fun to go out and look every morning.

This old guy is still with us and I am grateful for every day…even when he throws up on my pajama pants or has nighttime incontinence.  Geriatric dogs have the same issues as geriatric people, you know, but he’s the world’s best dog and I love him a ton.

My boys love to collect rocks for “mom’s rock collection.” Liam gets them out and makes me pick favorites and we talk all about them. The growing pile drives my husband crazy so that makes it even more funny.

This girl is loves reading.  I can’t even describe how James and Mad’s love of reading makes me feel.  Mike and I both love to read and the fact that they are always sitting with their freckled noses in books is so awesome.  The baby is loving it too.  He has heard a ton of new stories since Mad checks a book out of the school library every single day.  SO cute! Liam and I have been thrifting some good books lately too which is an awesome way to spend a few bucks.  I’ll pass on the caramel macchiato and buy some old dusty books any day.

This is a fuzzy iphone pic but Liam has been drawing the cutest guinea pigs lately.  I can’t get enough.

This is the time of year when everyone gives me their citrus surplus.  They are beautiful and smell so good.  Of course, I took a picture before I put it in my tea.

I found a little time to paint/draw. This is something I used to make more time for before my life became overrun with other things.  I’m not so great but it’s a creative outlet that has assisted me in some really difficult times so it’s pretty important to me.

So those are some of our “little bits of happiness” around here lately.  Thanks to Mrs. Stephanie T for the link up opportunity.  It is so good to stop and take a closer look at life and find those little things that make you feel good.

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